It’s not allowed!!! I feel really run down! I have so far spent the past 3 days in bed feeling very bored and pathetic!! I just want October to hurry up so that I can get out of this boring routine of work and start enjoying life again!! I’m really run down and knowing that the tickets are booked and were off traveling is just making everyday a struggle to get through 
Well I have just arrived back after a really amazing weekend! Been to Bodmin gaol on a ghost hunt! We had a fair bit of activity! Nothing like Alton towers mind you but it was still good! We stopped over and went to the witchcraft museum the following day and it’s an amazing place! I want to go back this weekend! Only downside was the 5 hours drive home yesterday! I’m shattered now especially after a day at work today but still I have a day off tomorrow to relax!
I can’t wait for the next 10 weeks to pass so that we can get on with traveling!
I really wish that I had a house to live in at the moment! Not sure I’m going to last the next 10 weeks at mums lol x
I’m just hoping that next Tuesday goes ok, I have more tests at the docs to see what is going on! I just hope it won’t delay the traveling!
Umm I think that’s enough thoughts for one day!
Good night all x x x
I have been back to the docs today and it’s not the best of news! I’m not too sure what to make of it all right now!
I can’t really get my head around it. I think I need to sleep on it. Just trying to stay positive! I have to go for more tests I’m really not looking forward to them! why can’t life just be simple? Why can’t things just be normal in my life? Why is it always a struggle to keep moving forward? Sorry, I’m just wondering why life it throwing all this shit at me now just as I was starting to feel good and move forward!! Aghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! Give me a break!!!!!!
Right!! I have to stop feeling sorry for myself right now and just get on with it!!! No more self pity! There are people out there facing a lot more than me!! It’s time to just get on with it!!
Not long now till I leave to go and see the world!
I’m a bit worried about what I’m going to do when I come back but I’m trying not to think about it too much right now! I think that’s the problem with me! I just need to learn to let go and enjoy the ride of life!
I was chatting to hubby last night and we both have said that the past 18 months have been the worst of our lives so far! We have just kept our heads down and tried to get through it the best we can and were finally getting to the end of the road of a very bad patch in our lives and we can now start living again!!
Last night hubby took me out to the country pub where he proposed to me this time 6 years ago!! We had a really really good night talking about the past 6 years and how we have gone through soo much together! He really is my rock I love him so much and couldn’t imagine life without him! I can’t wait to spend a whole 16 weeks with him travelling!
I have been looking back on andys blog and the first time we talked about going travelling together was back in January 2004!! I can’t believe it’s taken us soo long to just go and do it! I wonder what my life would be like now if we had just gone for it! I’m not going to mess about with the precious time that I have in this life anymore!! If I want something I’m just going to go for it! It’s the only way to move forward and to stop yourself getting stuck in a rut!!
Have you ever been in a position where you know something is going on that shouldn’t be and the person involved is doing it right in front of you but you can’t prove anything? I’m so annoyed right now! I need to work out a way to sort this out without it being thrown back in my face!! Hurry up October!!! Come quick!!! I need to get out of this place!!
And not in a good way either!! i feel like shit at the moment, I’m on stupid antibiotics and pain killers again and I’m waiting on some blood test results! I feel so pathetic right now! I just want to feel better! I want to sleep for a few weeks!
It doesn’t help that some people apparently just can’t leave me alone to get on and live my life!! For some reason I keep having to explain my actions to everyone, so from now on, if I want to go to my mates house or go for a walk or a drive etc. I will and I won’t explain myself to anyone!! The only person who needs to know where I am and what I’m up to is my hubby!!
I also can’t be doing with playing games either at the moment!! I swear people think I’m stupid!! I have studied psychology you know! Stop playing games because it doesn’t work with me!! I can’t stand people who are not straight with me!! Stop playing the mind games and just talk to me for f**k sake!! I won’t do this much longer! I won’t let people into my life who are just going to try and play me!! I like honest people who actually care about me!
Anyway I guess I better shut up now and go to bed! I’m really not in the best of moods right now and have maybe said too much already!
Good night everyone x x
It’s official… The tickets are booked and paid for!!! We are off to see the world starting 3rd of October!!! I can’t wait!!!!! I can’t believe it’s actually happening!!!!’ yay 
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Were buying are tickets tomorrow for our round the world trip!! The day is nearly here!!!! My god if I’m getting this excited about buying my tickets what am I gonna be like when we actually leave?