Sorry iv not been blogging for a while. Iv been really busy with work, college, hobbies and also hubby has been ill and needed an operation, he is fine now but it’s all been really hectic!!
Anyway I had an interesting day today and I’m not sure what to make of it.
I woke up and had a reiki session and then an hour meditation. I had my first assesment at college today so I needed to feel calm and relaxed! All went really well and I passed with no problems. I’m so happy iv got the first one out the way! Only another 2 assesments and 1 major exam left!
The first part of the day went really well and I got home and chilled out and my auntie came round to drop off the keys to her house as I’m looking after it while she goes to OZ and I’m gob smacked at what she had to say!!
I don’t really want to go into it on here as it’s personal to her but I couldn’t believe what she was saying!!!! Since I now know you read this 
all I can say is hang on in there, whatever you decide to do we are always here, it was really nice to see you tonight and if you decided to move to Oz we will miss you loads but no doubt we will be over visiting you all the time 
oh and if he does anything else to upset you, ignore it, your worth so much more!! Oh and don’t worry about the house we will look after it take care x x
Anyway it’s just gone midnight and I have work tomorrow so I better say good night and get to bed!
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I’m sat drinking champers after my sister in law has just got engaged!
Yay, another excuse to get drunk
I hope they both are very happy together. Congrats anna and matt!!!
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I’m not sure why but I haven’t updated my blog for ages!
My 21 days for my reiki ended without any problems! On the last day I closed my eyes to go to sleep and all I could see for hours was this amazing bright light that I saw during my attuenment! Iv only seen it twice, I see lots of colours when giving treatments to myself and others but this bright light is completly different and really intence!
I’m off to a crystal wharehouse tomorrow and I can’t wait, I have been busy over the past few weeks setting up a new age store online! I’m not expecting to make millions it’s more of a hobby! I really hope it works though! I will post website address when it’s finished!
I’m still doing the same old stuff, working in a place I hate and just generally plodding along! College is really good though and I had my one to one the other day and they said there is no reason why I won’t pass which is good. Were studding psycodynamics at the moment which is really interesting and making me think a bit more about which direction I want to go in with my career.
Hubby and I are also moving in 2 weeks so we will finally get some space!!
After a horrible 11 months of being stuck in a rut I’m finally starting to feel like me again! I just need to sort the job situation out now which is easier said than done!
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All has gone back to normal. I’m still doing the same old thing and feeling like I’m stuck in a rut! The only thing that has changed is that now I don’t worry about it as much or get as angry! Iv learnt to do more for myself as well and so I chillout more now!
I want to say to hell with it all and just do what I want to do for a change but there are too many people who rely on me for things!
I have this amazing idea that could actually really work and I want to do it but it would take up all my time and money to do it and I would be risking everything! I would have to use my other business (my flat rental) as a garentee to get the funding I need but If it all went wrong it would mean that a young couple who are just having their first baby would be out on the streets!
I almost need someone to invest in me and give me 20 grand which would set me free so that I can at last do my own thing!!
I think hubby is getting annoyed with me today because I keep texting him with ideas! I think I’m going to go for it and start up a smaller vershion of my big idea and hopefully it will grow and I will get there evenutally!
I bought a new CD off iTunes today it’s called Reiki Gold, it’s really peaceful which is what I need right now! It’s been one thing after another today! I’m currently lay on my sofa in my office listening to it! I just need a couple of candles on and some mood lighting and I would be well away!
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Well today has been interesting, I woke up late this morning so I didn’t have time for a reiki session before work and everything went wrong from there really.
Hubby has not been too well lately and I finally managed to convince him to go to the docs today and they sent him straight to the hospital. We have private health insurance thank god so they saw him straight away. He has to have further tests which is a bit worrying but I’m sure whatever it is he will be fine.
As soon as I arrived back home I suddenly didn’t feel too good either so I skipped tea and went to bed! Iv just done a reiki session and now my knees are burning! I’m not too sure what’s going on, just feel really odd, It sort of feels like having flu, my whole body is hurting and I feel sick 
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I thought I would write about the process that I go through following my reiki attuenment. Apparently it takes 21 days to settle down properly.
Today was my first day back at work, I got up as normal but before getting ready I had a quick 10 minute meditation session and then got ready but I decided not to put any makeup on today which is not like me.
I arrived at work early which is very rare for me and then was really organised all day and have even done the invoices to go out with the buffets we have booked in for tomorrow.
Someone I work with asked what was wrong with me today, I asked why and they replied with well your not shouting at us and being angry and stressed, you seem really chilled out, so I replied with I’m trying not to burst my bubble
I had such an amazing weekend and met some lovely people and Im still really chilled out from it and i dont want anything to ruin it.
I feel like I’m floating on air, I found myself taking the long route to the shops today so that I could walk next to the trees and walk through the leaves on the floor! Very random and not like me at all.
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Well it’s official, iv had my reiki attuenment and I’m now a reiki healer. It was amazing when I recieved my attuenment, all I could see was this extreamly bright white light. The reiki master said that the energy I was giving off was huge, apparently the heat from it was making me glow red.
Anyway I now have 21 days of it settling in and apparently all sorts of things can happen so I will keep you posted!
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Well this is it, tomorrow I’m off to my reiki class. I can’t believe it’s finally here! I’m so excited! Iv developed a bad back as well this week so hopefully tomorrow I can have some healing.
Since my last post so much stuff has happened, I walked out of work and checked into a 5 star health spa for a few days, I did it in style though and booked into the master suite (it was the only room left) it was amazing! I reluctantly went back home though and after a few nightmare days things started to settle down and I took just over a week off work which was bliss.
I did say that I wasn’t going to go back to work but I went back yesterday and hated every second of it, the second I set foot in that place all I wanted to do was scream and shout and throw things around!! I really can’t work there much longer and even though I keep telling people that I can’t do this much longer nobody is listening to me! Even walking out of work and running away to a health spa doesn’t seem to work, and if I don’t go into work then my family ignore me and won’t talk to me!!!
I can’t win, I either stay In a job I hate or loose my family.
College is going really well though, I’m really enjoying it, we have 2 assignments each week to do which is a bit of a pain but they have been easy so far so it’s not too bad.
I will let you know how my reiki goes tomorrow
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Fed up September 24th, 2008
I’m really fed up today, iv had a cold now for a week and it’s not getting any better! Work has been horrible again and when I’m at home it’s not much better!
I’m just fed up of my life being the same boring routine day in day out!
On a plus side I started college again yesterday doing 1 day a week and I really loved it. I just wish I could afford to study full time. I actually want to become a midwife eventually but I can’t afford to take 3 years off to study. I think it’s something that I will have to do a few years down the line. In the meantime I have decided to do a course that will help improve my skills. The one I’m doing at the moment is a counselling course, Im doing a year course in 12weeks!! They call it a fast track! So hopefully I will have passed my exam by the January and if I like it I can start the diploma in September to become fully qualified!
I’m also doing my reiki 1 in October which I’m really excited about! If I like it I will also do my reiki 2 and that’s in December!
I just wish that I was at that point now and not stuck in this horrible limbo! I feel like my life is compleatly on hold!
I’m not sure when to start applying for jobs either as I will need to start a new job in January but I don’t want to apply now and have to let people down or start applying in a month or so and not find anything!! I have started looking and I have found a few that I’m interested in but just not sure what to do!
Anyway I’m off to bed now so that I can wake up and do it all over again.
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I’m really bored at work again and counting down the days till I leave so I thought I would write a list to remind myself why I hate this job and want to leave!
1. I work for my mum
2. It’s not my chosen career
3. I’m always bored as it doesn’t interest me at all
4. I have to smile and be polite to customers even when their rude!
5. I have to give up my holiday entitlement constantly because they have nobody to cover me!
6. I have to go into work when I’m ill
7. I have to smile and be nice when customers tell me their life story
8. I have customers from the mental institution up the road come in and piss on my chairs!
9. I have gypsys come in a nick everything they can get their hands on
10. I have to smile and put up with smelly people who litrally smell that bad that they make me heave!
11. My family insist on coming in every lunch time and getting me to make their lunch for them even though I’m usually busy and they don’t even pay!
12. I have to put up with being called sweetheart, love, petal, darling or anything other than my name!
13. I have men who click their fingers and summon me over to their table
14. I have sleazy men who give me a tip by dropping a pound down my top and into my bra!
15. I have customers who can’t be bothered to come to the counter to order so they just shout it out to me
16. I have to be nice to young girls who tell me the only reason that their having another baby is so that they can get a bigger council house
17. I have to bite my tounge while the same young girls chain smoke around their children
18. I have to clean up after dirty customers who do things like stick chewing gum to the table!
19. You have to put up with stupid people asking for things like a cappuccino without milk!
20. You have people who come in and moan about paying 95p for a cup of tea! If you don’t want to pay it then get out of my f@@king cafe!!
21. My car parking space is always blocked in by another car!
22. Customers who won’t wait their turn and instead of standing in the que will just shout “I will have a coffee over here when your ready”
23. People who phone up wanting a buffet for 20 people but only give me half an hour notice and then moan if I say It will take at least an hour! Do they think I just sit waiting for their call?
24. All the paperwork I now have to do! Gone are the days of a chef just being able to cook! I must spend half the day filling out government crap!!
25. Customers who read the menu and then order something that we don’t do!
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