Day 10 of 21 October 20th, 2008
All has gone back to normal. I’m still doing the same old thing and feeling like I’m stuck in a rut! The only thing that has changed is that now I don’t worry about it as much or get as angry! Iv learnt to do more for myself as well and so I chillout more now!
I want to say to hell with it all and just do what I want to do for a change but there are too many people who rely on me for things!
I have this amazing idea that could actually really work and I want to do it but it would take up all my time and money to do it and I would be risking everything! I would have to use my other business (my flat rental) as a garentee to get the funding I need but If it all went wrong it would mean that a young couple who are just having their first baby would be out on the streets!
I almost need someone to invest in me and give me 20 grand which would set me free so that I can at last do my own thing!!
I think hubby is getting annoyed with me today because I keep texting him with ideas! I think I’m going to go for it and start up a smaller vershion of my big idea and hopefully it will grow and I will get there evenutally!
I bought a new CD off iTunes today it’s called Reiki Gold, it’s really peaceful which is what I need right now! It’s been one thing after another today! I’m currently lay on my sofa in my office listening to it! I just need a couple of candles on and some mood lighting and I would be well away!